Busy week

Well Tuesday and Wednesday werent too bad. Thursday I had PT, They are impressed with the increases I make each visit. I am looking forward to a full recovery damit!! I went to dinner with a friend at what has become our regular place. We stopped after at a new place in the neighborhood to see what it was like. Well, we left after midnight. They had a wonderful woman doing kareoke. In the middle of the night I attempted to go to the bathroom. Thought bedroom door was open, big mistake. Stubbed tooe pretty bad (more on that later).
Friday I headed to southern MD to go with Joan and KAtelyn to a dr appointment for Katelyn. As day progressed toe started looking pretty bad.
Hung out with a special friend on friday. Watched TV for a while, ordered food. I was in bed by about 900.
Sat AM toe was very purple, bruising spread to foot. Went to ED at DeWitt Hospital on FT Myer. Toe is broken! Damn, on top of the arm! I am falling apart. In the afternoon went to Leesburg Outlets with a friend. Looking for a gift for her moms birthday next week and something for her to wear to her nephews Christening. After that we head to Charlestown, WV to play slots. We left there by about 1030.
Today spent some time by the pool and got sunburned! Okay now its arm, toe, and sunburn. I do not know what has happened to me lately. Just falling apart!!

Ball at the Ball

Well Saturday was the Army Birthday Ball. I had a great time. We drove down early to the Hotel to get ready there and avoid the hassles later. Got in the room. Registered for the ball and then showered and got dressed. We met some friends before dinner started and had a drink with them. Dinner and entertainment were good. I missed a lot of the entertainment, but did get to hear Daryl Worley sing "Have you Forgotten" which always moves me. We had a formal picture taken and hit the dance floor. Really nice time.
Spent afternoon with the girls for fathers day. We went out to lunch. Would have done a movie too but they acted up.
So, stopped by Heathers house on way back and just chilled for a while. Actually took a little nap.
I was up early today to be at 730 Physical Therapy appointment.I am getting better every time I go!

Getting Better

Well, I am getting better physically. I had physical therapy yesterday. From Monday to Thursday I was able to increase my range of motion in both flexion and extension. The hard one right now is working on the rotation of the hand. Trying to get my palm up. That is where the PT guy concentrated most of his efforts yesterday. Hurt like a MFer sometimes, but I know that is what I need to get better.
My emotional state is not quite as healthy right now. I am looking forward to the Army Birthday Ball tomorrow, but also dreading it. It is our last officially scheduled time to see each other. I do not know what the future holds, but I hope there is an "us" and not just a me.
I can not believe how hard I feel in such a short time. I really thought there was a connection. Maybe there still is and after she has some time and space she will realize it too.
I am also looking forward to having some time with my girls on Sunday, which is fathers day. Not sure other than going out to eat what we will do. I had been thinking a park, but with weather predictions, I am rethinking that. Maybe see if there are good movies playing. Not sure if it is out yet, but I want to see Ratatouille.
Until next time....

Moving Forward

I am trying to move forward with my life now. I am doing physical Therapy for my arm and got the stitches out.
I am looking into ways to better myself as a person. I think what I am doing is going to help. I am also looking at ways to increase my income. The separation has put me in a financial spot that seems very bleak right now. I just hope that I can be somewhat successful and at least make enough to have a decent lifestyle. (like a place to live!!)
I am encouraged by some developments since the great unhappiness of the weekend. It is not a dead end. There is still hope. We are going to the Army Birthday Ball on Saturday and possibly going to a concert later in the summer. We had dinner last night and it was nice to spend time together.
Will keep y'all updated.

Follow up

Things may not be quite as bad as I thought. Not where I want, but not a complete ending. Only time will tell. "Space" WTF does that really mean damnit! Whatever it is I am giving it!!

F$&^

Well, my life as I know it fell apart tonight. I am not sure what will happen. DEceit is a terrible thing. I just wish I knew why. All I want is to know why. I thought my life was rolling along pretty good. I had happiness something I had not experienced in quite a while. Now I am experienceing ultimate sorrow. Do not know if this can be salvaged, but I will give it my best! Love how deep it cuts when it goes wrong!

Lots to Fill You in on

Well in late May I broke my arm. I had surgery on 30 May. I go in Monday to start physical therapy and Tuesday get stitches out.

I broke a piece off the end of the Ulna and the broken piece was shattered. They cut the end of the bone off and put in a prosthetic end. I am told I wont be quite the same. Not have full range of motion and can not do some exercises. What do Drs know!!

Because of the injury I was forced to move out of the firehouse until I am well enough to run calls again. I am staying in Annanndale Va with a friend from work. I am going stir crazy because the Dr gave me 30 days off work.

I am trying to use the time to make myself a better person in some ways. (more on that down the road)

Still separated. That is hard. Not seeing the girls all the time. But there is something in my life now that has brought me great happiness. (Some of you know of what I speak)

Next weekend (16 June) is the Army Birthday Ball. (who can tell the date of the army birthday) I am very much looking forward to attending. Will be sitting with Greg and Lori some of my closest friends. I am just hoping I can figure a way to wear the Dress Blues with what ever brace they give me on Monday!

Getting close to the 20 year high school reunion. Looking forward to that, too.